What am I doing???

So - I have spent the last two hours trying to figure out what is going on with the economy and if this is, in fact, the worst time to buy a house. Or, for the sake of argument, if I'm secretly cashing in on something that everyone else is missing. Mostly I think we're just trying to reassure ourselves that the sky is not actually falling as fast as the stock market.

The bottom line is that I've fallen head-over-heels for a very ugly house. It's sea-foam green. That might make sense if the house were on Fire Island or in Boca Raton, or if I was 84. One of my friends tried to reassure me with "I like it, it's... beachy." Right - except that there's no ocean for 232 miles - I googled it. I don't think we have fair claim to "beachy." Aside from the sea-foam, it has popcorn ceilings with water stains, holes in the walls, an AC duct system that would do nicely in a 1974 double-wide and carpet that has been there since the dawn of time complete with wrinkles to prove it. The kitchen is an insane combo of white cupboards with forest green "trim" (read: faux-trim created with the clever, and somewhat obvious, application of paint), fake "wood" counters and peeling vinyl tile. Also a mysterious and inexplicable drop ceiling - only over the kitchen, and for no apparent reason.

I've fallen in love with this ugly house and really want to fix it up myself. To work on it with my own hands and turn it into something that I can love and something that shows a little bit of me. I work all day, but at the end of the day there isn't really anything physical to show for it, so perhaps this is compensation for the lack? All I know is that all of the logical arguments for why I shouldn't do this seem to be sliding away with alarming ease. All of those minor details like utter lack of construction ability and experience, no actual budget for it and the house itself being far too big, not to mention the sheer number of hours needed seem not to matter so much right now.

I'm assuming this is going to be a comedy of errors, and for that reason I'm just going ahead and setting up the blog so that we don't have to go back and write about everything in retrospect. I can just post it as it's happening - in it's full glory. Besides, if Jan and Marg can buy a fixer and do it themselves, then damn it I can too.